Maybe I made a wrong choice..

When doing research you bound to face lot of failures...

nobody can create success overnight...

I tried... I tried... I seriously had tried again and again....

sometimes I wanna really really really shout out loud... I did not laze around doing nothing during work hour!

but when I failed to do something, how come I always feel like I am the one to be blame?

I am seriously gonna be in fatal depression if this goes on...

when people doing research they concentrate into doing one stuff and making it perfect!

but then me?

like a crazy people, first have to do this stuff, then at the same time have to run another analysis?

and then I am expected to produce a perfect result in such conditions... sigh...

now I seriously feel that I am one person doing multiple persons job...

I SERIOUSLY BEH TAHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok... I just wanna rant here only nothing big matter sorry all for wasting time reading this...

Unconditional~

There is one fact in life I learn after so long...

and that is..

in this world, there is no such thing as unconditional love....

you can never love other person and expecting no returns at all, is a lie when a person say such thing, even if he/she is not lying to anyone but that person is lying to him/herself

if you wanna have or give an unconditional love to someone...

then the only thing you can do is be a parents

Top Ten signs you are wasting time in facebook during exam season (students)

Okay this is just for fun... crapped by yours truly... if any one of you all are offended by this, then most probably you had done one the listed item below... xD

If still you feel unhappy after reading it, and sibeh beh song (extremely unhappy) about me, you can file your complain to your nearest thrash can, thank you xD

1. You login into Facebook 12-14 hour a day, but u read your school text book only half an hour a day.
2. You rant about how stressful your exam is in the status update everytime you flip one page of your exam's note
3. You post about how you gonna study hard for your tomorrow exam and reply to every single comment that people made about it.
4. You commented on your friend's status about their exam, asking them to study hard or 'add oil'
5. You click on the How is your luck today, Daily Horoscope, Fortune Cookies and etc. applications everytime you having a paper, or basically every single days during the exam month.
6. You post a countdown about your 'impending disastrous paper' as your status update
7. You do every single quiz available in Facebook
8. You try to psycho yourself into not login into facebook, but failed to do so
9. You will feel pissed off after reading this post and will try to kill me xD
10. The ultimate of all... When the result is out and you failed with flying colours... you blame it on Facebook.

So?

Stop facebook-ing and go studying people!! lol...

cruel yet is the fact!

SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST

The loser will be left behind, a cruel fact of life...

to survive in this world we need to be fighter... we fight for our future, our right, our family, our lover, our life...

something that each and every single one of us must learn to live with...

nobody in this world wanna be a loser!

When at the end of the road or we fail at achieving something, sometimes we blame on luck, or maybe we often says

I THINK IS FATED FOR ME TO FAIL AT THIS!

I am guilty for that phrase, we are a loser if we let ourselves to be a loser

*tighten the red cloth on forehead* yosh! I will make sure I have a brighter future!

I am lost....

stumped....

at the crossroad that both ways leads to destination I am seriously unsure about..

maybe dead end? or a happy ending?

should I go on with my current path? or should I stop now here and turn around back and start from scratch??

I am not much of a person who likes to shares my personal problem...

with friends,

families,

or anyone...

maybe is just me or selfish you could say, but sometimes certain things are hard to explain...

sharing of problem somehow is not my way of solving a problem...

instead most of the time when I am in such situation, I chose to run from it instead...

maybe I am a coward in facing the facts of life...

Sam, you are nothing but craps and nonsenses... you talk too much of bullshits la!

well... above are the remark I usually gets from people around me...

Please pardon my behaviour, because that is the only way I could hide my personal emotion, I am so sorry if sometimes my bullshits comes with sarcasm that might hurt people...

Is hard to change for me...

p/s: this blog is kinda dead... with less and less posting as time goes by... I am sorry also for that, but I don't have the time to update or maybe stuff to write about that often.

I am confused~

There is always chances and opportunities in life...

and when the opportunities comes to you, never runaway from it, think about it thoroughly... and then follow what your heart says best...

I am not much of a risk taker in life so far...

I have never dare enough to make big changes in my life... maybe is because I am already comfortable with my current life and how everything are now...

Maybe that explain why I am hard to change my mindset into being someone much more goal oriented and be a good planner of my own brighter future....

Those around me, keep on say...

wow... Sam, now that you had already graduated and already got a job apart from that you are pursuing your Master degree...is kinda awesome and amazing...

Yup... I am suppose to feel happy and grateful for listening such comment from people...

but then how come I am not?

what is missing?

I don't feel the kick of having all those...

maybe I already lost the sense of direction of where I should go... or maybe I still don't know what I really wanted out of my life?

or maybe I am just too greedy and always discontented about my life...

Sometimes I really hope there is anyone out there that could knock some sense into my head...

Perfect one~

The perfect man is gentle
And never cruel or mean.

He has a perfect smile

And is always neat and clean.



The perfect man likes kids

And will raise them by your side.

He will be a caring father,

And good husband to his bride.


The perfect man loves cooking.

He will clean and vacuum, too.

He'll do what's in his power

To show his love for you.



The perfect man is sweet,

Writing poems with your name.

He's a best friend to your mother

And will kiss away your pain.



He never makes you cry

Nor caused you hurt in any way.

To hell with this endless poem --

The perfect man is gay.

source: comedycentral

so ladies... why waiting for the perfect one lei?... there are always lots of imperfect man out there for you *cough* me *cough*.... lol

just a joke only.. it has been a while since I posted some sexist or men/women post ma hahha